Untitled

Bio huh?

Ok so about me… Well… errr…

Alone - I like my space. I'm private and quiet and I like it that way. My world consists of a dinky little house, a couple of pets and my mate. I don't like being interrupted or invaded upon. I don't have many visitors round and I like that! The best form of contact with me is email or Instant Messenger.

[If I was a stone I'd be sharp and painful if stepped on]

Time - I'm obsessed with time. I notice it all the time *grin* and I have a thing about clocks. Salvador Dali and I would have got on great! I like the sound time makes. Not the ticking, not the chiming not even the sand sliding through glass… the other sound. Maybe you know it, maybe you don't. I like time.

[If I was a word I'd be unpronouncable]

Darkness - I'm not a day person. I like the glow of candles and the glow of my computer screen. I like how quiet the dark is. How heavy, like a warm blanket. Darkness is comforting and familiar. Its nothing to do with flashbacks of being in the womb (some people are just morons and come out with drivel like that!). I like shadows and shade and blackness. I'm not trying to be invisible, I'm not trying to hide something. I just like getting lost in emptiness.

[If I was water I'd be deep enough to drown in]

Butterflies - I like butterflies. I like moths too. Its nothing to do with 'colour' or even the design on their wings. It's nothing to do with fragility either. I don't like that people put them in jars. Butterflies arent here for us to admire, that's just a bonus we get. I like grey butterflies, ones that are made of smoke.

[If I was a feeling I'd be loneliness]

Labels - I don't wear labels, except the one that says "Does Not Play Well With Others... this one bites". I could. I'm sure I fit into numerous categories. But I think categorising myself would be as moronic as watching reality TV. I don't need to label myself, other people will automatically do it for me. I like black "oh she's a goth!". I hate people "Oh she antisocial" (you get some real Sherlock Holmes people showing their intelligence by categorising you)

[If I was weather I'd be a hailstorm]

Marbles - I don't know whether I lost mine a long time ago, or whether I'm still losing them along the way. I like marbles. The noise they make in a velvet bag. I'm not insane, nor am I eccentric. I'm just me.

[If I was a dream I'd be unobtainable]

Issues - Whether I have issues or disorders or disabilities - I'm not about to discuss it. B lurting out problems to total strangers is done for two reasons - a) need to speak to someone and strangers can be better than friends. b) attention is needed and bringing up an eating disorder/mental disorder/emotional past/traumatic event etcetcetc… seems a good way to get it. I don't have those two reasons. Whether I have or haven't got something wrong with me / a condition / a disorder etc etc - it's my business.

[If I was important I'd be missing]

Cobwebs - They don't catch us, they don't trap us, they just hold us. We aren't the flies, we're the spiders. We build, we create and we control. Most of us, haven't realised that yet. Life is made with every decision, with every experience. Tough times don't last, but tough people do. Cobwebs are so strong and so fragile at the same time... think about it.

[If I was a promise I'd be broken]

Art - I like art. I'm not great at it, but I never said I was. I don't do it all the time I have a life that extends beyond art sites etc. I don't have to put every emotion and feeling into my art and then upload it. Some things in my world are still private. If you like my art great, if you hate my art, fine. I like my art sometimes, hate it other times… that's life.

[If I was anything I'd be the last heartbeat]